Chapter 76: Once it's gone, it's gone forever (6000+) Seeking monthly tickets!!

  Pei Jun glanced at her, but his gaze was no longer as cold as before. He pulled her back and said, "I'll take you."

  "Are you okay going to work?" Ye Anning asked as she closed the car door.

  "Uh-huh." Pei Jun started the car and drove her home. Ye Anning was unusually quiet, which was very out of character for her. Normally, she would chatter nonstop, and if she were sitting in a car, she would look around curiously like a little kid, interested in everything. But now she just sat quietly in her seat, staring ahead, and Pei Jun suddenly felt a bit unaccustomed to this side of her.

  Ye Anning's palm suddenly felt warm, his large hand grasped hers, and the warmth of the pancake still lingered on his palm. She turned her head to look at him, but he stared straight ahead without looking at her.

  Ye Anning suddenly felt a warmth in her eyes, and she grasped his palm tightly with her hand. She knew this was his silent comfort, and her heart felt warm.

  He is a cold person, very taciturn, sometimes at home for an evening he can go without saying a word. She would ask him this and that, and if he was in a good mood, he would respond with one sentence. He didn't know how to comfort people, but he clearly knew she wasn't feeling well. He wouldn't say anything or ask any questions, he just quietly stayed by her side, giving her warmth and strength.

  Ye Anning was really grateful that he didn't ask any questions, at this time she didn't want to say anything, just hoping someone could accompany her by her side, in fact it's very simple, just hold her hand without saying a word, that's enough.

  The car stopped steadily this time, Ye Anning wanted to withdraw her hand, but Pei Jun suddenly pulled her hand in, she looked at him with some surprise, "What's wrong?"

  "It's nothing, let's go." Pei Jun seemed to want to say something, but in the end he didn't say anything. He released her hand and grasped the steering wheel. Ye Anning chuckled and leaned over to give him a loud kiss on the cheek, "A reward for you."

  After she finished speaking, she pushed open the car door and ran out, her footsteps weren't exactly brisk, but her mood had improved a lot.

  Bai Jun touched his cheek where she had kissed him, and it still felt warm, as if he could still feel the softness of her cherry lips.

  Bai Jun's mouth corners slightly raised, and he drove away.

  Ye Anning has always had a good recovery ability. Unhappy things, she is like carbon dioxide in her lungs, breathing out and expelling them. She never dwells on unhappy things.

  "Peace."

  A familiar voice sounded behind her, Ye Anning's footsteps paused and turned back to see Shen Yicheng standing by the flower bed, the smile at the corner of her mouth slowly converged.

  "Is anything wrong?" she asked faintly without looking at him.

  "Can't you come see me if nothing's wrong?" Shen Yicheng stepped closer to her, his eyes locked onto the wound on her forehead, a flash of pain in his eyes, he raised his hand to gently stroke it, but Ye Anning dodged and sidestepped him. "If you're not busy, I'll go up now, I'm a bit sleepy."

  Ye Anning turned around and left, Shen Yicheng hastily called out to her, "Don't invite me to go up and sit for a bit?"

  "It's inconvenient." She wasn't lying, it was indeed getting less convenient. Besides her own things, Pei Jun's belongings were also increasing in number at home, and it wouldn't be very convenient for outsiders to see.

  Ye Anning realized what she was thinking in her heart, and couldn't help but pause for a moment, a bitter smile flashing across the corner of her mouth. When did he become an outsider in her heart?

  "I'm leaving." Ye Anning took a step back, Shen Yicheng looked at her back, his heart aching badly, he quickly caught up with her, grasped her shoulder and turned her around, "Anning, when I ask you, don't be so cold to me, okay?"

  Her gaze was fixed on his face, and she could clearly see the pain in him. He said not to be so cold to him, but actually she wanted to say, why be so cruel to her.

  "What should I do with you, brother-in-law."

  Shen Yicheng's eyes flashed with a hint of injury, and he looked at her forehead filled with apology. "Sorry, Anning, if you're still angry about what happened that day, go ahead and vent on me, hit me or scold me, as long as you don't treat me so coldly anymore. You can punish me however you want, really, I didn't expect things to turn out this way. I just didn't want you to keep in touch with Pei Jun. Can you forgive me?"

  Ye Anning let out a soft sigh, it's really tiring.

  "Yi Cheng Ge, don't you think you've said 'I'm sorry' too many times already? You're not tired of saying it, but I'm tired of listening to it. I'm really sleepy, can I go back to bed?" Ye An Ning weakly pushed his hand away and turned to go upstairs.

  As for her words, Shen Yicheng was really speechless. What she said was right. Since he came back, he had already apologized to her too many times. However, he really had no choice and just needed some time.

  "Anning, I know you're tired, so take a good rest. If anything comes up, give me a call, I'll be available 24 hours."

  Ye Anning didn't respond to him because she knew that even if she really needed help somewhere, the person she would turn to for rescue wouldn't be him.

  Lying in bed, Ye Anning couldn't sleep no matter what. As soon as she closed her eyes, a pool of blood flashed before her eyes, along with those mournful cries. It was the thing she least wanted to think about, but for so many years, this matter had been haunting her like a nightmare, making it impossible for her to forget. Today, Ye Mingzhu's words brought it up again.

  Ye Anning curled up on the bed, her hands tightly wrapped around herself. Mom, I miss you again.

  Tossing and turning, unable to fall asleep, Ye Anning finally got up. She thought of the diary she had brought back from Xue Song Garden that she hadn't read yet.

  The old-fashioned book had a cover made of sandalwood, giving off a sweet and fragrant scent. The pages inside were slightly yellowed with age. As Ye Anning opened the diary to its first page, her mother's elegant handwriting appeared before her eyes.

  Write for me the love I pursue and my beloved baby.

  Ye Anning's eyes were slightly moist, at home except for her there was no one else, she didn't have to pretend to be strong. This diary was started when Mom and Dad were in love, and only after discovering that she had been added did the sentence behind it come later. Speaking of which, I am calm.

  Mom's temperament is the most gentle, her impression of mom's face always has a gentle smile, and when speaking to her, it's also in a soft and gentle tone. Mom's voice is like a pleasant song that makes one's heart feel relaxed and joyful.

  But she doesn't really remember her mother's voice anymore, it's been too long, she can only remember that she was gentle.

  Mom and Dad's romance, she had seen it all before, a very melodramatic tale of hero saving beauty, but Mom was deeply entrenched in it, and buried her whole life in this sentimental affair.

  She flipped through the pages one by one, and in this diary, her mother carefully recorded everything about her growth: when she would sit up, when she would crawl, when she first spoke, when she called "mom"...

  Her first words were "Dad", because her mom had taught her to call out for him first, thinking he was just busy with work and running around outside to give them a worry-free future. It wasn't until Qiao Yun showed up at their doorstep that her mom's self-deception was completely shattered.

  Qiao Yun's arrival completely broke the tranquility of Yang Xue Song's life. In fact, she had already sensed it, but hadn't seen or heard it with her own eyes and ears, so she could deceive herself that everything was just her imagination. Until Qiao Yun appeared, she couldn't deceive herself anymore. The perfect family she had been trying to maintain with all her might began to show cracks, the window paper was pierced, Ye Qingyun didn't feel any guilt at all, but instead became more and more brazen, not returning home, Yang Xue Song started crying every day.

  Ye Anning remembered her mother's tears, she would silently shed them when she was alone. Ye Anning had seen it many times, because in front of her, no matter how hard it was, her mother always smiled, so she had a particularly deep impression of her mother's tears. It was a gentle and docile woman who could only use tears to protest the bitterness and helplessness of her husband.

  She had no one to talk to and nowhere to vent, she wanted to question her husband, but didn't even have the opportunity to see him, everything was bottled up inside, accumulating day by day, so in the end she fell ill, her mind developed problems.

  Ye Anning vaguely remembered that time, her usually gentle mother's emotions became increasingly unstable. She would suddenly lose her temper, burst into loud crying, smash things, and suspect everything outside, especially her. During that period, her mother looked at her with an unusually fierce gaze, as if she was afraid of losing her again. Her mother watched her closely every day, but Ye Anning was still too young to understand anything, and all she thought about was playing. She remembered one time, the only time her mother hit her, because she had sneaked out to play. Her mother ran out like a madwoman to find her, and when she did, she slapped Ye Anning for the first time, chasing after her as she cried and begged, but her mother's slaps kept falling.

  After that, her mother watched her even more closely, often staring at her in a daze without blinking, not allowing her to take half a step away. At that time, she was really very scared.

  One day, a little cat suddenly ran into the yard. Xue Song Garden was in a remote location and people were scarce, let alone small animals. She excitedly ran out, but her mother was furious and locked her in the storage room behind the garden, saying she was disobedient and that this was the only way to prevent her from running around and leaving her.

  It was very dark in the storage room, she was so scared, she cried and begged her mom to let her go, but her mom still left, leaving her alone there...

  Ye Anning flipped through her diary, which also clearly recorded this matter.

  She was locked in the storage room for three days without water or food, her throat was hoarse from shouting, when her mother opened the door she had already fainted and fallen to the ground, her consciousness was a bit fuzzy. It turned out that her mother didn't do it on purpose, she just forgot, her mother was very ill at that time, she thought I didn't want her anymore, she searched the whole house and even the surrounding area of Xue Song Garden, finally when she found the storage room, she saw her with cracked lips and pale face, crying loudly and filled with regret.

  Ye Anning thought that those three days in the storage room were like doomsday for her, she had experienced what it was like to be desperate, what it was like to compromise and what it was like to be powerless too early.

  She stayed in the hospital for a long time, because no one came to pick her up. Except for the first three days when her mother took good care of her, from the fourth day on, she disappeared and didn't reappear until about half a month later.

  The day he came home, Dad came back to see her, but the two people didn't know what they said in the house, and they had a big fight again. After the fight, he left in a huff, while Mom cried quietly in the house.

  The next day, her mother sent her to a boarding school. At that time, she was only in the first grade of elementary school and could go home once a month. However, she did not expect that the day they parted would be the last time she saw her mother.

  She prayed every day at school for the days to pass quickly so that she could see her mother soon, but instead of waiting for the holidays, she waited for the news of her mother jumping off a building.

  Ye Anning was immersed in the sorrow of memories, crying to the point where she couldn't catch her breath. She didn't even get to see her mother one last time because she had jumped from a building and was covered in blood, not allowing Ye Anning to see her. Afterwards, she was taken to the Ye household by Ye Qingyun, and that's when her dark days truly began.

  Ye Anning stroked her mother's delicate handwriting, every word and sentence filled with apologies to her.

  But when she saw one of them, Ye Anning was suddenly stunned. She frowned and pulled the book closer, reading it word by word.

  June 7th, sunny

  I can no longer be decadent, my decadence almost killed my beloved daughter. I am truly filled with regret, but I am also grateful that heaven has not been unkind to me and did not let my precious daughter come to harm. Otherwise, I would never forgive myself for the rest of my life. Love is too ephemeral compared to my daughter. I have found a neurologist to treat me, and from today on, I will persist in taking my medication every day, following the doctor's instructions to treat my condition conscientiously. The Yang Xuesong of tomorrow will live only for Ningning.

  June 14th, overcast

  I've been taking my medication every day and I feel like my nerves have improved a lot, my mood is very calm. Every day, I sneak into the hospital to see Ningning, she's recovering well, but I'm still not daring to bring her back home yet, the doctor says I need to observe for a while longer.

  June 22nd, sunny

  Ning Ning, I'm sorry. Mom really can't do anything about it and can only send you to a boarding school for now. Mom is still undergoing treatment and is really afraid of hurting you again. Forgive mom, soon mom will come pick you up and from then on, we mother and daughter will never be apart again.

  July 15th, sunny

  I really feel like I've fully recovered, every day I'm extremely clear-headed, I can clearly know everything I do every minute and second, although sometimes I still can't help but think of him, but more often I miss my daughter, two days later is the day of the follow-up examination, I think it's time to pick up Ningning, baby, mom really misses you.

  Ye Anning frantically flipped through her diary, wanting to take another look at the content behind, but there was none. The diary ended here, how could this be?

  Mom didn't go pick her up because she jumped off the building and killed herself on the 28th, just one day short, just one day short of her coming back for vacation.

  Ye Anning looked at the words in her diary, feeling an inexplicable sense of panic. She had always thought that her mother had mental illness and was not clear-headed when she jumped off the building, and everyone had told her so. But according to what this diary said, her mother had already recovered. In such a clear-headed state, how could she possibly seek death? Moreover, her mother loved her so much, how could she suddenly abandon her and resolutely leave this world?

  Ye Anning felt that something was wrong. Her mother had jumped from the building on the 28th, but her diary stopped abruptly after the 15th. What had happened during this period?

  She had never felt such self-reproach, nor such panic. She reproached herself for having spent so many years without looking at her mother's diary. If she had seen this content earlier, she would have investigated earlier, and then wouldn't she have known what happened to her mother during that time?

  What made her panic was that her mother's death might have another reason. Thinking of a certain possibility, Ye Anning took a cold breath!

  If mom didn't kill herself, then she...

  Ye Anning's hands and feet suddenly turned cold, her body trembling violently. She couldn't believe what she had suspected, it was too terrifying!

  Ye Anning was immersed in fear for half a day before she came to herself. She must get to the bottom of things!

  But where to start?

  When Pei Jun came back, Ye Anning was sitting on the bed with her knees in her arms, staring blankly.

  Bai Jun changed his clothes while glancing at her, "What are you spacing out for?"

  Ye Anning shook her head and lay down.

  Pei Jun thought she was still upset about the thing with Bai Tianye, so he didn't bother her. As for that matter, he would wait until Ling Yu's investigation results came out before saying anything.

  Ye Anning lay on the bed, her eyebrows tightly furrowed together. She had thought about it for an entire afternoon but still didn't know where to start investigating. She was too young and knew nothing about anything. Where could she even begin to uncover the truth?

  Just as she was feeling depressed, the sound of clanging pots and pans came from the kitchen. What was he doing? Wasn't he cooking? It sounded like he was going to smash everything.

  Ye Anning got out of bed and went to the kitchen to see him. Standing behind him, she saw that he had opened the steamed crab, carefully picked out the crab roe and crab meat, and then used the back of a knife to crack open the crab legs and pick out the crab meat inside.

  He was wearing a dark gray home service, with a floral apron tied outside, his robust body standing upright, through the kitchen window to see the sunset at the edge of the sky, he seemed to be surrounded by warm and soft air under the color of the evening glow.

  She couldn't help but be mesmerized by his movements, which were both skilled and elegant. Despite his humble background, he always exuded an air of nobility, even when cooking in the kitchen. It was as if he possessed a unique charm that commanded attention. Although he rarely smiled or spoke, his cold demeanor still managed to convey a sense of refinement and poise with every gesture.

  Bai Jun sensed someone behind him and turned around to see her leaning against the door frame with a hint of a smile in her eyes as she gazed at him.

  He raised an eyebrow and beckoned to her, the sunset casting a faint red glow on his cheek. She hurried over, putting aside the puzzle in her mind for now, and said excitedly, "We're really having crab tonight."

  He scooped out the freshly cracked crab meat and brought it to her mouth, she opened her mouth and took a bite, it was fragrant and fresh, the taste was extremely good. He fed her two more bites, patted her little butt, "Alright, go out now, don't get in the way here."

  She stuck her tongue out at him and ran out, actually listening to him for once. Her kitchen was really small, with two people standing in it, they could easily bump into each other if they turned around. Anyway, she couldn't help much, so she might as well go watch TV.

  The dinner was exceptionally sumptuous, and Ye Anning's little belly was bulging. She rubbed her swollen belly with one hand and hummed as she said she couldn't sit still, walking back and forth in the living room with a cute expression.

  She hurriedly walked up to him and complained, "It's so bloated, what to do, it feels like my stomach is going to burst."

  "Serves her right!" He didn't sympathize with her at all, like a little pig, eating whatever was given to her, without knowing whether she was full or not, thinking she was a goldfish that doesn't know when it's full, and would eventually die from being too stuffed!

  Although Pei Jun thought so, seeing her small face scrunched up in discomfort, he still put down the things in his hand and pulled her into his arms, placing a large hand on her swollen belly, gently massaging it. His voice was light, "Twenty clockwise, twenty counterclockwise, repeat for a while and you'll be fine."

  Ye Anning was so tired that she just wanted to sit down, but her belly was too swollen and she couldn't sit comfortably. She leaned lazily against him, her small face scrunched up in discomfort. "Rub my belly for me, I don't have the energy."

  Bai Jun was really at a loss with her, and just when he had finally digested his food, she came back to life and crawled out of his arms.

  He had several case reports to write at night, she knew he was busy and didn't disturb him, and she went into the bathroom to take a bath.

  Pei Jun poured a cup of coffee, sat on the floor in front of the sofa, writing reports while checking relevant cases of this disease on his laptop. His phone rang at this time, and he waved the documents in his hand, knocking over the cup of coffee on the table. He hastily moved the documents away, spilling coffee all over the place. It was Ling Yu's call, and he answered it in a flurry, saying that basically everything that could be investigated had been cleared up, and that someone would be sent to deliver it to the hospital tomorrow.

  Ye Anning came out of the bathroom just as he finished his phone call, and as soon as he turned around, he saw her rush over, pick up the pillow on the floor, and coffee splattered all over it. The light green pillow was instantly dirty.

  He was just about to speak when she suddenly flared up like a furious beast, turning her head to glare at him with anger in her eyes. "Who told you to touch my things?!"

  Her tone was unusually vicious, and her frowning gaze seemed as if she would have liked to go forward and fight him to the death.

  "Pei Jun originally wanted to say that he didn't do it on purpose, but looking at her like this, the words couldn't be spoken. With a similarly unpleasant tone, he said, 'It's just one hug, can't I just compensate you with another one and be done with it?'"

  "You speak so lightly, can you afford it!" She glared at him with red eyes, her slender neck bursting with anger.

  Bai Jun's face looked extremely ugly, and he said coldly, "I'll definitely return you one that's exactly the same!"

  "Who wants your stuff!" Ye Anning took the pillow and rushed into the bathroom, slamming the door shut behind her. She tried every way to wash it clean, but there was still a faint coffee stain on it.

  It's gone, this is the only one in the world, he specially customized it for her, once it gets dirty, there won't be another one...

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