02/03/26- 8:24 pm

  I was initially going to wait a little longer to update, however even after a single day I have somewhat of an understanding of my situation…with Polaris specifically.

  As I had stated in my last entry, in the other realms he is a dragon egg, however in the physical world he is a very large unlit novena candle. Despite him being an egg, he is literally being created and birthed by my magic. With that, we have a deeper connection even at this point. This allows him to communicate some emotion or feeling.

  As of right now, almost one hundred percent of his communicating is him asking for more and more magic!

  Look, I know he’s a dragon, but come on!

  I’ve been feeding my core for basically 2 years straight, and even with that, he’s still a hungry boy. I am realizing with deeper thought and consideration, it could be our connection to celestial magic. The void and ever expanding space and time of the universe lives mirrored on his body. I work and weave with the celestial threads of the universe and will them and work with them within reason.

  My hunger in all aspects of body, mind, and spirit have both been hindered and strengthened by this very trait. It’s the shadow and light. The blessing and a curse.

  On another note, he loves the multi colored scarf I have wrapped around him. It’s one of the first pieces I had added to my original altar to my Goddess and that was over 3 years ago, so it has a lot of prayer and spells weaved within it. Which is more to protect him. At this point, those of shadow knew I was trying to manifest my familiar, but they are not aware that a physical catalyst has showed here in the physical world.

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  They are aware of the trial however.

  So, because of that I’ve had to make some extra precautions for the next couple of months. I am unable to take Polaris anywhere outside of my bedroom here in the physical world. My room is basically the layout of my kingdom within my realm. I have tons of used and unused candles, clustered towers and sections. Certain long standing rituals or multiple altars. My bedroom would be the equivalent to a church or temple with how much magic and warding I have placed. It’s not perfect, but much stronger than one would expect from a bedroom temple.

  Another precaution is that now that I am linked with Polaris with a stream of magic being fed to him, if I am seen or found then they will see the tether and find him. I have decided for the next couple of months, at least until the day of the Spring Equinox, I will remain veiled by all. I will not show anything besides my eyes, unless I am alone. This will help when I leave my home, this way even if anything or anyone of shadow that comes near, then I’m at least protected by a strong veil barrier. It’s honestly a process to layer all the wrapping, bandana and blessed rosaries.

  It was only a day and I was already anxious, but then I was pacing in prayer, getting lost in thought as I walked around my room holding Polaris close to me as I fed threads of magic into him, I felt like a proud parent.

  I even started my thirty minutes of some light VR boxing paired with my already twenty thousand steps a day to start working towards empowering our bodies. My eating could have been a little better, but much better than usual.

  Please hold.

  Something is here.

  I am typing and trying not to let my mind and spirit give me away. This is probably the best and worse part about living in two worlds.

  The split.

  I’ll share more about that during my next entry, well maybe, but the cliff notes- I use my magic to split my mind one to continue moving my physical and the other to handle what occurs in the other realms.

  However, I must go. something is wrong. Right when things were feeling re-balanced of course there would be something of shadow, well at least I assume it is. However, the magic of whatever is here is manifesting here in my physical world too. The wards are reacting around the room. Whatever it or they are, there is movement on the outside perimeter of my room. The wards lighting up and dimming down as whatever is outside is pacing by them. They are searching for entry.

  I am not in a great spot to be weaving strong magic with my core being in the state that it is in, but I’ll have no choice. May the Goddess, Ancestors, and all who dwell in my realm grant me strength to survive.