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Chapter 9: The Maintenance Manual

  She stayed quiet for a while.

  The shaft hummed. Souls drifted. The hook in her chest settled into a steady, low ache that was more presence than pain.

  “Sit.” the Auditor said at last. “You look… compressed.”

  “There’s nowhere to sit.” she replied.

  The ring under her feet flexed.

  A low block rose smoothly from the surface beside the railing—dark, flat, just high enough to count as a seat.

  She eyed it.

  “You could have done that earlier.” she said.

  “I could do a lot of things earlier.” he answered. “I rarely do.”

  She sat.

  The material was hard but solid, like leaning against a wall that had no intention of giving way.

  He leaned on the railing, looking down into the shaft with the detached focus of someone who’d watched the same motion for a very long time and was waiting for it to misbehave.

  For a few breaths, neither of them spoke.

  Then she said, “How do these bodies actually work?”

  He glanced over.

  “Clarify ‘these.’” he said. “Yours? Mine? The screaming wall décor outside?”

  “Everyone.” she said. “Everyone who has a shape here. Do they sleep? Do they need to eat? Does everything hurt all the time for everyone?”

  “Ah.” he said. “Orientation questions. Should’ve guessed it would take you this long to ask them.”

  He straightened, turning to face her more fully.

  “All right.” he said. “Bodies first. Then pain. Then the ridiculous habit some souls have of asking where the toilets are.”

  She waited.

  “In your old world,” he said, “bodies are fragile sacks full of complicated fluids, running on chemical bribes and electricity. Here, shapes are… functions.”

  “Functions.” she repeated.

  “Forms built around what Hell wants from you.” he said. “Punishment, work, both. They respond to what the place needs, not to biology. There’s no blood pressure to monitor. No organs to fail. Just purpose.”

  She looked at her hands.

  They obeyed when she moved them. They did nothing when she didn’t. No pulse. No warmth. Just response.

  “What about sleep?” she asked.

  “Do I sleep?” he echoed. “No.”

  “I meant souls in general.” she said.

  “Some do.” he answered. “Some are allowed to. Some are forced to. Some aren’t given the choice either way.”

  “That’s not an answer.” she said.

  He gave a small, theatrical sigh.

  “Sleep here is a setting.” he said. “Not a requirement. Shapes like yours don’t get tired the way they used to. You won’t collapse just because you’ve been active too long. But certain sectors enforce cycles—on and off, sensation and blackout. It can be part of the torment. Or maintenance. Depends who signed the form.”

  “So if I lie down and decide to sleep…?” she asked.

  “You might drift.” he said. “You might not. Your mind can still sag under too much input. It’ll try to shut doors for a while. But no one below a certain clearance is guaranteed rest. You’ve probably noticed there’s no night here.”

  She had.

  The sky, if it could be called that, never changed. Just the same sick red wound, the same ash.

  “Do you ever stop?” she asked.

  He smiled without much humor.

  “I get periods of reduced interference.” he said. “That’s as close as I come.”

  She let that sit.

  “What about eating?” she asked.

  “If you want to.” he said.

  She blinked.

  “That’s it?”

  “There are places down here that serve things,” he said. “Some of it is symbolic. Some of it is very real. Some sectors use food as a tool. Others ban it entirely. Your body doesn’t need it. No calories, no sugar crashes, no starvation. But if you’re given something and told to consume it…” He lifted a shoulder. “You will feel it. Taste it. Choke on it, if that’s the point.”

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  “So,” she said slowly, “hunger is optional.”

  “Natural hunger is gone.” he corrected. “Manufactured hunger is everywhere. Same with thirst. Same with most sensations. The default is neutral. The deviations are… installed.”

  She thought of chains. Of heat burning through bone when she’d been remade.

  “That was installed.” she said.

  “Oh, very.” he replied. “You were being written. Now you’re in a more stable state. Most of the time, you’ll feel nothing you aren’t given.”

  “Is that supposed to be good?” she asked.

  “It’s supposed to be true.” he said.

  She leaned forward slightly, elbows on her knees.

  “Pain.” she said. “You told me: this place is built to hurt. Does everyone feel it? All the time?”

  He was quiet for a moment.

  “No.” he said at last. “Not everyone. Not always. Not in the same way.”

  “Explain.” she said.

  “You love that word.” he noted. “Fine. Think of Hell as a very large factory with many departments. Some are loud. Some are quiet. Some deal only in heat. Others in pressure. Others in absence. Pain is the main product, yes. But it’s delivered in… varieties.”

  “Physical.” she said. “Like the chains.”

  “Those sectors are popular.” he said. “Very traditional. Fire. Blades. Weight. Breaking. Bodies tuned to feel every scrape, every fracture. They heal just enough to start again.”

  He paused, considering her.

  “And before you ask,” he added, “no, not everyone gets the whip.”

  “Why not?” she asked.

  “Because some of you would enjoy that.” he said dryly. “There’s a whole category we keep away from the dungeons on purpose. Those get sent to the office floors. Endless forms. No windows. Meetings that never end. That’s punishment.”

  She stared at him.

  “You’re serious?” she said.

  “Utterly.” he replied. “If someone arrives thinking, ‘this can’t be Hell, this is just my old job,’ that usually means their file has been processed correctly.”

  A short, involuntary sound escaped her—almost a laugh, strangled before it could fully form.

  He looked faintly pleased.

  “The whip is simple.” he said. “Paperwork is… purer.”

  “And the others?” she prompted.

  “Cognitive.” he said. “Emotional. Some souls are barely touched physically, but they loop through memories. Regrets. Fears. Every choice they dodged. Every harm they dismissed. We turn the volume up on what was already there until it’s all they are for a while.”

  “For a while?” she echoed.

  “Even the harshest loops have cadences.” he said. “Peaks. Valleys. It’s more efficient that way. Constant intensity dulls. Intervals sharpen.”

  “So some people scream because their body hurts,” she said, “and some because their mind does.”

  “Yes.” he said. “And some scream because they can hear other people’s pain and can’t stop it. Or because we’ve taken away all sensation and left them with nothing but the awareness that they are still here. There are many ways to apply pressure.”

  “Do you feel pain?” she asked.

  His mouth twitched.

  “Sometimes.” he said. “Not the scheduled kind. I’m not assigned to a rack or a loop. But working at my level means I’m tied into the system. When it strains, I feel it. When numbers go bad, it grinds through me. Think of it as… feedback.”

  “That sounds unpleasant.” she said.

  “It is.” he admitted. “But it keeps me efficient. And I’m very hard to crush. They prefer tools that protest only when there’s a real problem.”

  “And me?” she asked. “How much am I supposed to feel?”

  “You’re a special case.” he said. “Your form is built for passage, not for display. If we overloaded you constantly, you’d be useless. So you’ll feel enough to stay anchored. Enough to know when you’re touching something that matters. The rest… is variable.”

  “Variable how?” she asked.

  “If you step too far into a sector that isn’t yours, it will rewrite you to match.” he said. “Temporarily. You’ll feel what you need to feel to make that function work. If you walk past an engine that burns souls for motive power, you might feel heat. If you audit someone whose regret is all they ever are, you might feel their grief scraping along your thoughts.”

  “That sounds like more than ‘enough to stay anchored.’” she said.

  “You wanted the job.” he said.

  “I didn’t.” she reminded him. “I fell into it.”

  “Details.” he said.

  She fell silent for a moment, looking down at her hands again. They were steady. Too steady.

  “Bodies don’t decay.” she said slowly. “No disease. No aging. No hunger unless it’s imposed. Sleep is optional. Pain is… organized. Why keep us in shapes at all? Why not just thoughts? Or numbers?”

  “Because shapes are relatable.” he said. “A scream from a mouth hits harder than a line on a page. A hand reaching for something it’ll never get again is more instructive than an entry in a ledger. And because some of us remember what it was like to have bodies. It’s easier to aim resource allocation at familiar outlines.”

  “Resource allocation.” she repeated. “That’s what you call torment.”

  “That’s what they call it.” he said. “I call it work.”

  She studied him.

  “You really never eat?” she asked. “Never sleep? Never… stop?”

  “I taste things sometimes.” he said. “Sleep is inefficient for me, so they turned it off. Stopping is reserved for entities who have finished being useful. I have not.”

  “That sounds like its own punishment.” she said.

  “Ah.” he said. “You’re starting to understand.”

  She let out a breath.

  “So if I decide to lie down on this,” she nudged the block with her heel, “and shut my eyes…?”

  “You might get some quiet.” he said. “Especially now, right after an assignment. The system likes to give new tools a moment to cool. But don’t expect dreams. Those cost extra.”

  “And food?” she asked. “Can I… choose something?”

  “In theory,” he said. “There are places that serve. Some are run by creatures who think giving the damned a menu is hilarious. But taste is often tied to memory, and you’ve had most of yours stripped. Whatever you ask for would probably surprise you too.”

  “I think I’ll skip the restaurant scene for now.” she said.

  “Wise.” he said. “The last soul who asked for ‘comfort food’ ended up in a sector that specializes in serving people everything they miss until they can’t stand it.”

  “That sounds almost kind.” she said.

  “Only for the first twenty minutes.” he replied.

  She was quiet again.

  The shaft below them kept moving, slow and constant, like a heartbeat that belonged to something much larger than either of them.

  “So…” she said at last. “My body doesn’t need anything. It works because Hell wants it to. It hurts when I’m assigned to feel something. It rests if the system decides I’ll function better that way.”

  “Accurate.” he said. “You’re learning faster than most.”

  “And if I refuse?” she asked. “If I decide I won’t move? Won’t work?”

  He tilted his head, weighing how direct to be.

  “Then, eventually,” he said, “someone with more authority than me will decide you’re more useful as part of the scenery. Shapes like yours make excellent supports when emptied out.”

  She nodded once.

  That answer fit too easily.

  “Good to know.” she said. “I’ll file that under motivation.”

  He smiled, sharp and brief.

  “You’re adapting.” he said. “Hell hates that.”

  “Is that good for me?” she asked.

  “For now.” he said. “It makes you harder to place. And as long as you’re hard to place, you stay mine.”

  She didn’t like the word mine.

  But she didn’t pull away from it either.

  “Fine.” she said. “Next time we go up, you can talk to me about momentum and throughput. For now…” She rubbed the spot over the hook. “I think I’ll take whatever passes for a quiet moment.”

  “Enjoy it.” he said. “They’re expensive.”

  He turned back to the railing, watching the slow drift below with the practiced attention of someone reading a very long, very detailed report.

  She closed her eyes.

  The ring hummed under her.

  Her body didn’t sink or sag or slip toward sleep in the way it once had—but something in her thoughts loosened. The noise of rooms and flowers and the echo of other people’s lives faded to a background murmur.

  For a little while, Hell’s newest employee did nothing at all.

  And Hell allowed it.

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