24th of July, 3:19 AM

  The porn movie I’m in has been released.

  I’m gonna be OK.

  I’m a bit more scared than happy.

  Everyone is going to see this. Well, not everyone. Fuck, I shouldn’t have written this entry with a pen. I’m gonna get a pencil.

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  Not everyone is gonna see what I did. But a lot of guys will. I’m scared the wrong types of guys will recognise me when I’m walking around. I’m scared of getting shamed, laughed at, asked for sex. I’ll never be able to be a teacher. I’ll never be able to have any job that involves working with kids.

  Well, on the bright side, a dream came true. I’m in a movie. And soon my dream of being famous is gonna come true.

  The movie’s title is Trevor’s Pool Party. Mike, Adam, and Steven come up with the names for the movies. My scenes are the last two. The pool one and then the bedroom one. Steven said they saved the best for last.

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  We had a party at the Castle to celebrate the release and the release being the first with me on it.

  Steven was the only one who didn’t drink. He was the one that was picking everyone up and driving them home. I didn’t drink much, I had two mojitos. I almost never drink. My last drink before tonight was the margarita I had in 2003.

  “Yo! How’ve you been?” Logan asked me when I got into Steven’s van. “Dude, it’s great to see you again.”

  We picked up two more guys before we picked up Toby. Toby took off his clothes when he got in the van. We all laughed.

  “Oh my God! Are clothes THAT bad?!” Steven asked.

  Toby’s response was, “Yep!”

  He showed off his dick and ass before putting his seat belt on. He didn’t have clothes on for the rest of the day. He put them on just before he went back into Lydia’s house.

  I spent a lot of the day with Logan and Toby. I met most of the other porn stars. Logan introduced me to them. Logan was right, it’s just white twinks here.

  “How does it feel to be the only Asian here?” Toby asked me while we were having a drink with Logan at the table in the backyard.

  “I don’t have a problem with it. Where I used to live, I was one of only 8 Asians.”

  I danced a lot with Toby and Logan. I think that was my favourite part of the day.

  Steven dropped me off at around 2:40. I showered before I started writing. I’ll play Sims some more and then go to sleep.